HOW THIS MAN WAS BEFORE

 HOW THIS MAN WAS BEFORE.

This entry is about a man whose name was meant to be kept secret as it resembles his pride. Once there was a man who had been having some mending his attitude for the cover up of his past life. To him, it was awful and a dreadful past in which he cannot even have a glimpse of flashback if it comes. It trembles his heartbeat with bearing the looks of the people let down. Their faces keeps coming at a never ending paste. They always remind him how he made himself believe in a senseless mindset before. He could just walk away from it, sometimes he tried and keep trying but it still comes as if it wants to stay in his mind forever.

This man has been struggling to remove his thoughts about others. He always have been having bad thoughts about others and not realizing about his. In fact, his problem is much bigger than the others which is his mindset. He always thought that he should be seeing others’ bad side and put away his. This triggers him hatred deep down in his heart where no one belongs but his own enemy, himself. He found himself locked up in his own world and always saying that others should be doing better, always not satisfied with the others and always putting everyone as a problem to him.

One day, he sat and said to himself that these things he is doing, these thoughts he has been thinking and these mindsets he had been holding for these whole years area all giving nothing but pain in his heart. Moments later, tears started to slowly flowing on his cheek. His eyes were a reservoir of tears thinking about his past life that had and always has been his trouble ever since. However, things keep coming to his mind and it is even when he drives and sort of a problem to him. When it comes, it takes him seconds to peel off the dry pieces of thick past experience one by one. He came out stronger afterwards.

Then, years later, a lady comes by to his life, a new chapter to him and a new life experience. He told himself how this one is so precious and will always look after this one as of her treats to him an how this lady always took account of his feelings. He saved all the formalities and said to himself that he will never do any bad things to this lady and will always tell himself that he will always treat this one like his one and only spouse. Forgive and forget and always open for pools of forgiveness. She is the starting of everything new and if this man loses her, it will be the end of everything. No more spouses to live with and no more love life. She is and will always be the only one.

This man dedicated this entry to his friend, sometimes he described with many other words such as a best friend, the right one, his great acquaintance, a girlfriend(obviously a girl not a boy) and also if God wills, he wishes this one as his last and wants to end up with her and future life partner. He said to me to deliver this to you my friend,” he loves how you tell and appreciates his stories, even if he seems quite a babbler, but deep down, he just wants you to know his heart so that he can give more to you. He also said, he has not been so rich of money but he dreams of being the most luxurious lovely person to you and always he does.

He said, “ dear readers, appreciate those who comes and go, they are the right person to come and go. They give you something but you need to find it however it is.”